Tuesday, December 28, 2010

What are we giving back?

Here i come again.. with a relatively smaller post this time! :) I would have to leave for work in another couple of mins... but i just thought that i could blog...before leaving!

It was just that.. i was driving down from work yesterday evening ... and was thinking abt the purpose of my living.. [Bah.. i do this often..:D] ... And suddenly it struck me..!! There was this question, that came up to my mind..! what have i given back to the society? There was a feel that started nagging me.. it said.. U have gained so much from this very society of yours.. but have u given anything in return? Why ave u not.. thought of doing something.. that gives u a lot of personal satisfaction at the same time... benefits one soul atleast???

I believe, most of you would have started to think to skip this blog of mine.. and go down to another page that's relatively interesting! :D Certain thoughts suddenly pop up and its difficult to erase them as well :D I've seriously began thinking as to what i should be doing productively once am back from work.. as, all that i do now is laze around and weekends are meant for shopping, eating, sleeping and lazing around..!

Yesterday, i did something productive.. i feel so happy about it....!! I called up an orphanage and found out if they require an english teacher for them, who is willing to spend few hours to teach the kids out there on weekends! :) Know what? They've asked me to come down this weekend..! :) Am happy that my new year would begin productively..!

Small things.. at times.. gives you so much of Joy!!

And yes... i've started to do something productive!! :) :)

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Commitment, Responsibilities, Duties..!! What not?

Alright.. Now...What does my title mean? Commitment... Duties... Responsibilities..!! What has all these got to do?? I've been told by people that... if a principle is followed in life, if a life is led with commitment, if the duties are met and if all these are handled responsibly, then... Life turns out to be successful..!! Is this true? Do we gain lots.. if the life is handled this way...Principled.. Serious!!?? What is that all of you have to say for this?

Honestly speaking, i fall into the category of a principled person! I sketch out the activities on a daily basis and go by it dutifully... and yes,it does give me a personal satisfaction most of the times! But... then...off late... i have been feeling,if i've gained true happiness? The answer to this happens to be a big and a firm "NO!!"

When i look back into my life, 5 years down the line.... i started counting the days when i've been truly happy. It actually made me realize that, i haven't been happy..or rather haven't been attaining personal happiness! When i pondered over the fact, i felt that... i've been dutiful... committed ...and responsible... and have done things selflessly for many...but have never tried to do something for myself...!

Alright, lemme cut the crap..and get down to what i had wanted to blog..!! :)

Its such that, a principled life might fetch you true happiness, but at the same time.. the principled life.. should ideally fetch the true personal happiness as well...! Time for yourself is ideally the key to a good life! What have u dreamt of becoming? Where are u in that process? How long would it take for you to get to what you actually want? Are we really... thinking of these on a daily basis? Do we work towards it? Not many of us do it...! [Pardon me..in case I've offended any of you who is actually working on your passion...! :) ]

With all that I've seen for the past so many years, i would suggest that....if one realizes his/her passion and works towards it..with utmost... diligence... Personal Happiness comes to u... [Rather, u happen to get a peaceful sleep.. :)]

To give you guys a small example... I've always dreamt of writing, blogging and counseling people on how to approach life..!! Hmmm... that had been my passion as well..!! But then, did i do it? Nope! i was only procrastinating it...!I had not... given it a due thought... i did not even realize the fact that my words can comfort a person, until one fine day when my best buddy told me.. that he felt much relieved after speaking to me..!! It sounded nice.. and at the same time... lighted up my thought.. and yes... today here i am starting off with my passion... my blog.. after a long long time..!! and yes... it brought me so much of happiness.... personal happiness..... i feel that i am all set...into the groove...!!

When such a small action can bring in so much of joy to a person...imagine.. the amount of joy that one can attain....when one achieves his or her passion...hmmm..am sure..you might think of this now... [Infact many of you might consider this to be pure crap... but then....this might help you in working better towards it....]

who knows? anything can happen..!!

Thursday, June 10, 2010

I Miss my mommy!

I have been feeling lonely .. very lonely!! Am i missing home? Or is it because am married? Or is it because am attached to my family a bit too much? I dont understand.. But am feeling lonely these days! Its as though... I've been cut off from the world around me! I was brought in a normal atmosphere just as everybody else has been brought up, but... I've been fed with unconditional love and affection..! There might be thoughts amongst you that.. "what extraordinary affection has she been exposed to? Even we've been exposed to the same? Probably.. even more than hers!!" Yes! You might be right.! Everybody has their own experiences be it happiness or Joy..! But then, I've been brought up in an environment, where in i was never questioned..I was never let down... I was never scolded... I was never restricted... There was always an YES..in fact a very big YES to anything i said...! I am so grateful to my parents for bringing me up this way! This has made me lead life happily...independently! But then, now... i feel really lonely! I feel as though, the world has forgotten my existence! I might be imagining! I might be hallucinating! I might be absolutely wrong... But then, i feel as though ... Whatever I've said so far... is right! People say... "Loneliness kills...Silence Kills..." This is absolutely true...This is happening to me! I am not sure, if time is the answer! But i definitely would say that as time heals .. this would also heal soon.. and am confident about it!

I am not sure, as to why i have blogged this... But then, loneliness confuses people! :( and yes.. am a victim! Void of friends... Void of people..! :(

Is this confusion? Is this hallucination... is this common to all... or is this the way people feel if they miss others!

Anyways... Mommy, I MISS U!! :( :( :(